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READING
And I’m thankful for every day that I’m given,
Both the easy and hard ones I’m livin’.
But most of all, I’m thankful for
Lovin’ who I really am.
I’m beautiful.
Yes, I’m beautiful.
And I’m here.
(Brenda Russell, Allee Willis, Stephen Bray)
WORDS OF HOPE
Fantasia Barrino, who plays Celie in the new movie version of The Color Purple, sang “I’m Here,” the powerful song of self-reclamation and empowerment, 86 times on stage. At a certain point two of the younger black actresses—Hailey Bailey who plays young Nettie and Phylicia Pearl Mpasi who plays young Celie—came to the set regularly to watch her shoot the scene. Though it was initially unclear why they came every day, one of them revealed, “I needed this. You blessed me. This heals me.” From then on, singing this song became for her “a ministry.”
Most of Celie’s story, set in the racist South of the early 20th century, is anything but triumphant. She suffers sexual abuse by her step-father and has her children taken from her. She suffers domestic abuse at the hands of her husband “Mister” who controls and belittles her at every turn. Cynthia Erivo, who played the role on Broadway, shares: For “two and a half hours I was thrown across the stage and called “ugly” for eight shows a week for 14 months.” It started to get inside of her. (DNYUZ, Dec. 25, 2023)*
Fortunately, Celie’s power and selfhood are nurtured by strong women like Sophia who resists the forces which would diminish her and by sexual intimacy with blues singer Shug Avery who teaches her pleasure, loves her into being, and helps her learn a trade making pants. The current film version also highlights the force of Celie’s imagination as she envisions a better future for herself and refuses to let her life be defined by her pain (Time Magazine, Dec. 25. 2023).
It is a magnificent moment, then, to hear the formerly voiceless Celie sing out: “Most of all I’m thankful for who I really am. I am beautiful. Yes, I am beautiful. And I’m here. “
Few can get to the end of that song without tearing up or feeling a clutch in their heart. That response is not just for Celie, but for ourselves. Perhaps the tears are for the critical voices we still carry within us, voices shaped by still-wounded parents, voices of gender conditioning,
racism, trans and homophopia, voices which tear down instead of building up. For these, may we continue to be a force for healing and change.**
But for some the heart-stretching speaks gratitude—that the love and grace of God, friends and family, counselors and spiritual community have fostered and nourished, sustained and healed us into wholeness so that we too can sing: “I’m beautiful and I’m here.” And the tears that spill from our eyes are tears of joy, and “Thank you, thank you” comes suddenly from our lips. This is to be held in the wideness of God’s Mercy. We’re beautiful and we’re here.
PRAYER
Gracious God,
May this be the year of radical self-acceptance. From this grounding, may we love others more completely. From self-forgiveness, may we forgive others more deeply. From the reconciliation of our warring selves, may we understand what it is to be a bridge to others. May our loving who we really are give us a taste of the magnitude of your radical love for us all. Amen.
DEVOTION AUTHOR
Dr. Pat Saxon *A link to Cynthia Erivo’s performance: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E2ok14OZhdg
** Accessible work on radical acceptance may be found in Tara Brach’s book and videos. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-jUAw5KnghM
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