Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil, for you are with me…
A Word of Hope
In God’s Hands
In my darkest hour I did not keep my eyes focused on God. I lost sight of what is important. Fear was at my left and worry was at my right. God was before me, but I did not hope. I lost the faith. Howbeit that Jesus was there to save me from drowning. Peter was sinking not only in the water, but in his own doubt as well. Though he took his eyes off Jesus, the Lord rescued him.
I am not defeated nor am I ashamed. Instead of giving room to vanity I will remember what it was like to point the gun at myself. I was desperate and utterly hopeless. When I pulled the trigger that should have been the end of my life. Something did die that day though it was not me. It was the thought that I was in control. If there was one thing God kept me alive for it was to say that. We are not in control. Praise God because the one who is in control happens to be madly in love with us.
Many times we will encounter storms of various kinds: unwelcomed change, illness, and even death. There are too many things that could go wrong to never think about it. Instead of seeing your situation, for just a moment, picture Jesus as you see Him in your heart. Now look at Him. Keep looking at Him. Like the Apostle Peter, he’s not going to let you drown. I will tell you again, Jesus is not going to let you drown. You may lose your life, but you will never lose your soul so long as God is keeping it.
Abba, Father we cry out, “deliver us.” These winds of change have blown me over. The waves threaten to drag me to the depths of despair. I have tried everything on my own and all I got for it was heartache. Reach into my soul Lord. Pull me out of the waters. Put me on solid ground. Give me the will to live. It is all I can do to even pray. If it were anything other than you I would dare not hope anymore for fear of losing one more thing. My Love, keep our eyes on You. If we should look to our left, be at our left. If we should look to our right, be at our right. Be ever before us on all sides and may we see You. Bless You Lord, for you will not suffer my soul to dwell in hell. As long as I have breath I will believe that in the town of Bethlehem a child was born. His name was Jesus. Amen.
Order of St. Francis and St. Clare